I'm back to blogging...

    Well, it's been a long, long couple of months.  Some wonderful things have happened as well as some bad.  I really needed the break, but missed sharing my thoughts, pictures, memories, and moments.  I was diagnosed with anxiety and I struggle with it almost daily.  I don't take any medication at the moment, but I'm not opposed to it if I get in really bad(which I have this past couple of months).  I managed to not take anything, mainly for fear of complications.    I'm out of the fog now and feeling good.
                                                   I'm also pregnant.
 Those that know me well and love me(my husband) know that the first trimester is a dark, dark time for me.  I go into a deep depression when my hormones are surging.  This time was one of the worst and we *almost* didn't make it through.  But, by God's grace, we have.  We are on the other side and things are good again.  Why my husband puts up with me, I'll never understand.  I know he says he knows it's going to be rough for a bit and I'll come out of it, but in those moments I don't believe him.
                             He is the strongest man I have ever known.
                            I am honored and blessed to call him my husband.
We all know the struggle is worth it...so, so worth it.  We are going to have a little girl.  We truly feel blessed.  I won't lie and say my anxiety doesn't get the best of me at times with worry for this little one or for my other children, but I'm doing pretty well with it...
  We've also had some other changes as well.  My dad has moved up to be close to us.  Actually, he's really close right now living on our property until he gets his home started.  He loves his new job and it brings me such joy to see him happy with what he's doing.
        I have learned that those you least expect can surprise....in a good way....
  To be honest, I've learned so much in these few months.  Some, I will share in the future and some will stay in my heart...what I've learned most is that love does conquer all.  The love my husband feels for me is strong.  I know he loves me, I know he loves our family.  I know...without.a.doubt..he is with me through thick and thin.  I've seen it.  I've experienced it.  After 18 years together, I finally get it and it feels wonderful.


   

I want!

First Haircut

Peanut got his first haircut!

He looks like such a big boy now..sniff..sniff..

He handled it like a trooper only crying for just a bit and of course, all smiles and giggles afterwards!

 

 "I'm bored of this mommy!"

"I look handsome!"

I can't even take it how cute he is!!

Fun at the Splash Park

 We went with some friends to a splash park last week and the kids(even the big ones had a great time). 

Why do boys always do this?

No, I don't want the answer...

Matthew helping his baby brother.

 Nicholas lovin' on his brother.

 After all that fun...Peanut was pooped!

Night..

 

Planning is half the fun!

It's that time of year again.  Time when the boys start figuring out what they will be for Halloween. Peanut joined in the research although he has no say what he will be this year.  I love planning on how we will make our costumes and what new and creative ideas the boys come up with.  So far(things may change)...Nicholas wants to be a magician,  Matthew wants to be Rocky and Peanut is going to be an owl.

Fun at the lake with friends...

 Our friends invited us onto their boat for a quick ride and swim before dinner.  The kids had a blast!

Peanut was a bit hesitant at first...

 

Brooklyn showed him the ropes...

 

Matthew making my hair turn gray...

 

 

It was just me and the boys(Darryl was traveling)..we tried not to rub it in to much.

I'm so thankful for good friends that are always there when you need them and always are so hospitable.

We always have a great time with this family.  We always have lots of laughter and food-a great combination!