Our home

This is my kitchen...I love my kitchen...I designed this kitchen from the floors, to the ceiling, to the walls, to the fixtures...everything...

But, our home is for sale...

Why? I don't know because I'm not content. I have major issues with being content. This must sound so selfish to some people and in all honestly, I feel selfish. I am a sinner and this is one area I really struggle-just tryin' to be real here. You see we've owned 4 homes since the boys were born(they are 7). It seems we have never felt *at home* somewhere. Could it be because we move so much, probably. We've never established roots somewhere. I've always thought the grass was greener somewhere else. It isn't...I've learned that... But to be honest, I don't want to live here. D doesn't want to live here... The boys don't want to live here. I wonder is it because of my negative energy regarding this place but I don't know. The boys miss our old home. We lived in a subdivision. With a pool...and lots of kids...and a big suburban home. Now, we live in a little 1940 bungalow within walking distance to town. We can walk to the library, to the ice cream shop, to listen to music on the green. But, there are no kids, our yard is really small...and there are no kids. We moved here because my husband and I wanted too we didn't take into account what they wanted.

They don't want to be here. So, the for sale sign went up last Thursday and we'll see where the wind blows us this time. It may be awhile seeing as this isn't the best time to sell a home. And yes, we will probably lose alot of money, but this next home will be a family decision.

Either that, or the house won't sell and this will be a lesson in contentment I will have to swallow.

God is good and he knows what's best for all of us, not just me...